They Know

Welp. The secret's out.

   It seemed pretty dramatic telling people. Tyler had just seen it on our one-month, my best friends had been asked to guest blog, and some select others just sort of heard a rumor about it. Well here it is--my blog.

   It felt a tad strange telling my mom. After posting the G&N Birthday video, I felt like it was finally time to show her what I've been doing online all this time. I sent it through Facebook since she wasn't home at the time, which seemed simpler to me since I was extremely anxious and couldn't ever bring it up to, well, any of my family members in person. Believe me, I've wanted to. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Why was I having so much trouble telling people? Why would I whisper about it to the few people who knew about it during school? What was I afraid of?

  
   I'll be honest, in between the time I sent the video's link to my mom and the time she responded, the thoughts in my head were spiraling into complete chaos. I'm not sure if I was relieved, scared, proud, or what, but I couldn't stop crying. I nervously messaged a few friends on Facebook--shout out to Dana, Justo, Rachael, and Junie--and their words of kindness got me through that seemingly lengthy emotional breakdown.

   With the kind motivation of my mom, friends, sister, and boyfriend, I decided I'm ready to just put myself out there. I get it, it's a blog, big deal. Honestly, these are my thoughts. These are my interests. This is what I do when I'm feeling anxious or on mornings like these (it's 3 a.m.) when insomnia kicks me in the butt. This is seriously an inside look at, well, me. It's terrifying but exciting. I still don't know what to think about it.

   My thrill with blogging has been exponentially growing. Honestly, this is a new passion. It's a combination of my favorite things--writing, photography, beauty, etc. I'm hoping this blog grows to be a success. No matter what, I want to keep writing, taking photos, and making short videos because it's something I enjoy doing. Tyler and I are going to work together to re-format this lil' puppy, and I'm ready to be truly open and create fresh, new posts for everyone (hopefully) to enjoy.

Thank you all very much for reading. Is there anything you'd like to see on my blog? And is anyone interested in guest-blogging? Just let me know down below!

-Lydia